Monday, April 3, 2017

I know, I know

Where have I been?  Well, I've been here.  But not really.  And that's very evident in my weight tracker.  I am done with excuses.  I am done with cheats and sneaks and half-ass tracking.

I'm in it to win it.

Starting today.  

Lately, I have been using "well, that's life" as a reason to not be stricter.  Yes, things come up, stuff happens and sometimes food choices are not in my control.  BUT, I CAN control what I do with those food choices, when stuff comes up and things happen.  I CAN pick through the bad food and find something good.  If not - one word comes to mind moderation.

I took the traveling journal (aka "the lucky journal" to some) this week.  The idea is to track what you eat and how much you exercise in writing with like a pencil.  To me, it's old school.  I track everything on my phone.  We'll see just how lucky this traveling lucky journal is. I am tracking in both places.

I am not happy that weight has crept back on.  I am certainly not happy that the really cute pants I bought last summer are SUPER tight and not at all flattering.  I'm really, really unhappy that I had to BUY a few pairs of pants just get me through.  Ugh.  If that isn't incentive enough, I don't know what is.  

PLUS, in 4 months, we are going to Nashville.  I'd like to be able to wear cute, fun clothes while we are there.  I know what needs to be done.  Just like Nike...

...Just do it.

Friday, February 24, 2017

Tragedy

Something terrible has happened.  It was mostly avoidable.  I could've said no thank you.  I could've walked away.  But I didn't.  And now...now I am the owner of a box of Girl Scout cookies.  

<gasp>

They are safely tucked away about 4 feet away.  In an effort to NOT eat another one, I ate some of the yummy Weight Watchers Cinna-licious Swirl crunchy snack.  But who are we kidding???  I can actually hear them calling my name from inside the baggie that's inside the drawer.  The pull is too great...

Must.
Have.
Another.

Think about it.  They are only out a short period of time.  So, if I indulge a little, is it really a crime against WW?  Nope.  I will enjoy every crunchy bite.  And when they're gone, they're gone.  And I'm good again.  

Until Nabisco's come back with the Fruity Pebble Oreo's.  Then all bets are off!


Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Like Oprah Says...

..."If not now, when?"  Today I bit the bullet and signed up for a tour of a woman's gym.  I love my elliptical and I love my weekly Pilates class but I am just not feeling that it's enough. Depending on how the tour goes and - of course - the cost I will decide whether it's within our budget.  

2 years ago when I began this journey, I was able to do a mere 15 minutes at a slow speed on the elliptical.  Now, I can whip out 30 minutes with no problem.   And now I'm almost CRAVING more exercise!  Say what?!?!?  

That's right.  It's coming up on my 2 year anniversary.  Yes, I thought for sure by now I would be at goal weight.  Yes, I have been discouraged and upset. But NO!  I haven't quit and I haven't given up.  I'm going to get there.  It's just harder than I expected.  I am reminded constantly at how far I have come.  I have managed to keep 50 pounds off.  But those last damn (pardon my French) 10 pounds are hanging on for dear life.

So.  I'm going to try to shake things up a little bit.  See if I can trick my body into losing again.  I have to reach deep and find my resolve to quit sneaking sweets.  Not sure what's wrong with me but I haven't been able to say no too much.  Time of the year?  Time of the month?  Just because it's Wednesday?  Doesn't seem to matter.  I want it.  

Things have to change.  Now.

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Happy 2017!

It's a new year!  A clean slate.  A great time to reevaluate goals and how to best achieve them.  I really don't think setting resolutions work.  It's unnecessary pressure.  So, let's use the word commitment.  Unless you're have commitment phobia.  

I really enjoyed the holidays.  I know too much because I can feel it.  It's not just my pants are a little snug, but in general I just didn't feel "good".  Sure I still exercised as much as I could.  But, I ate foods I said goodbye to a long time ago.  I fell face first into a bag of my favorite potato chips.  I sucked down a peppermint milkshake from Chick-Fil-A without batting an eye.  I didn't say "no" to much.  I drank more adult beverages than I have in a long time.  In other words, I gave into the holiday spirit.  And now it's time to change my ways and recommit.

True confession time - I didn't track.  At all.  Mostly because I was lazy but also because I felt guilty about what I was eating/drinking. And honestly most of the time I didn't care.  Even though I KNEW I was losing control and was possibly getting farther away from my goal. I was kind of glad to miss WW last weekend because I know it's going to be u-g-l-y.  

I am SO fortunate to have so many good friends and my family to support me.  I couldn't do it without them.  

I am now tracking everything (good and bad).  I am exercising.  I am going to really TRY to get at least closer to my goal weight by my birthday. 84 more days!

Let's do this!

Tuesday, December 6, 2016

Mindset

Ever have someone tell you that you have to take of yourself before you can help others?  Or how about you can't help someone who can't help themselves?  I have heard these words and have said them. 

At this time of the year, it's easy to lose track of yourself.  For me, I am busy trying to make Christmas magical for my family, while working full time and still performing my day-to-day "duties" at home.  This is life.  And sometimes life just gets in the way of what should happen.  

I should be on the elliptical every single day and taking a walk after dinner.  I should be making better food choices when I am on the fly.  I should be making sure I am getting plenty of rest.  But are these things always happening?  Not always.  Because life is getting in the way.

So, how do I change that?  Well, first I have to change my mindset.  I need to "stay the course" and cut myself some slack (but not a lot). Easier said then done, right?  

Mindset.  I hear that a lot at work. By definition, it is "a set of assumptions, methods or notations held by one or more people or groups of people that is so established that it creates a powerful incentive within these people or groups to continue to adopt or accept prior behaviors, choices or tools"  Isn't that speaking to Weight Watchers?  It's a method held by a group of us who are trying to change our relationship(s) with food - adopting better behaviors using tools provided to us by Weight Watchers.  At least that's my interpretation.

Making the change has to be within ourselves.  No one can MAKE you take care of yourself.  No one can help you if you don't want to help your self.  Only you can make up your own mind.