Celebrations!

At my Saturday morning WW meeting, I got to celebrate someone who reached goal weight.  It was SO exciting.  You see, we've been on this journey together.  We have shared the ups and downs.  We have shared recipes and tips.  We have cheered, we have boo'd, we have agonized over .2 pounds.  She is testimony that this CAN happen and WILL happen if you stick with it.

On my way to the meeting, I was hopeful for her that that would be the day she made goal.  I am so excited for her.  I have surprised myself by not being jealous.  I mean, sure I wish I was there right along with her.  But, I will get there eventually.  Then we will celebrate me.  YAY!

This is the last week of school (schwoooo).  I am looking forward to the teachers and the kiddies being gone.  Without them, the likelihood of random food showing up in the office will diminish.  And, the stress will be mostly gone.  I have found that for sure I AM a stress eater.  These last few days have proved that as fact.

So, once we get through the school celebrations and the end of year celebrations and we get everyone out of the school, I should be just fine.

Until then...let's just celebrate.

Within reason!  ;)  

Am I Old?

I think I might be getting old.  For example, my patience has worn very thin - for most everything.  I have zero tolerance.  I instantly "hate" skinny young 30-something girls who "got it goin' on".  Ok, hate is a strong word but I definitely feel threatened.  I have limits now, where I didn't use to. I roll my eyes at the things young people say/do/wear.  I'm getting cranky.

But, here is the kicker.  Due to my recent stomach issues, I have had to add more fiber to my diet.  Isn't that something old people do???  The other morning, I found myself in line at Wal-Mart, buying Benefiber.  This is in addition to - on doctor's orders - the added a probiotic!  What is happening????  Please stop me if you ever hear me say "when I was your age...".  Good grief!!!  

Everyone knows that the older you get, the harder it is to lose weight.  I am guessing that's true since I am a whole year older than I was when I started this journey and I CAN'T GET THESE LAST POUNDS OFF!  

Things creek more when I stand up.  "Things" have shifted.  Some things aren't at all where they should be.  I don't bounce back as quickly as I used to when I have had a few adult beverages.  And Lord watch out if I haven't had enough sleep!!!

Age.

I know it's only a number.  I know it should be a frame of mind.  Most days I feel much younger than my 40-something years.  Then there are other days when I have to ask myself...

Am I old?

Sometimes I Just Want...

...to snap my fingers and be skinny.
...to eat whatever I want and not have to worry about gaining.
...to look in the mirror and really love what I see.

I know that losing and maintaining a healthy weight is hard work and it's a life time change.  But there are times I wish it just wasn't SO hard.  I want to indulge.  I want to imbibe. And not pay for it later. "A moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips" and all that jazz.

Traveling, being off your "normal" schedule, stress, work.  All things that can work against you - if you aren't careful.  I have been watching the scale go up and down and up and down for over 6 months.  I am beginning to feel that they only way I am going to get these last 10 pounds off is to eat the same exact thing every single day and not cheat a single bit and drown myself in water.  Anything to reach my goal.

I honestly thought it was going to be easy.  I mean, all the way up to this point, it was.  Weight was just dropping off.  Now, I am stalled.  Yo-yo-ing.  I just want to reach goal.  Then, I can stay there.  Ugh!!!!  So frustrating!!!!!