Tuesday, December 6, 2016


Ever have someone tell you that you have to take of yourself before you can help others?  Or how about you can't help someone who can't help themselves?  I have heard these words and have said them. 

At this time of the year, it's easy to lose track of yourself.  For me, I am busy trying to make Christmas magical for my family, while working full time and still performing my day-to-day "duties" at home.  This is life.  And sometimes life just gets in the way of what should happen.  

I should be on the elliptical every single day and taking a walk after dinner.  I should be making better food choices when I am on the fly.  I should be making sure I am getting plenty of rest.  But are these things always happening?  Not always.  Because life is getting in the way.

So, how do I change that?  Well, first I have to change my mindset.  I need to "stay the course" and cut myself some slack (but not a lot). Easier said then done, right?  

Mindset.  I hear that a lot at work. By definition, it is "a set of assumptions, methods or notations held by one or more people or groups of people that is so established that it creates a powerful incentive within these people or groups to continue to adopt or accept prior behaviors, choices or tools"  Isn't that speaking to Weight Watchers?  It's a method held by a group of us who are trying to change our relationship(s) with food - adopting better behaviors using tools provided to us by Weight Watchers.  At least that's my interpretation.

Making the change has to be within ourselves.  No one can MAKE you take care of yourself.  No one can help you if you don't want to help your self.  Only you can make up your own mind.  

Wednesday, November 23, 2016


The holidays are upon us.  Thanksgiving is tomorrow; a time to reflect on what we are thankful and grateful for.  

Instead of freaking out the possibility of overeating, like so many of us weight watchers will do, I have decided to be thankful that we have the means to possibly overeat because it means that we have the means to put food on our table.

I grumbled a lot about not wanting to cook for 3 and being mad that my daughter threw a fit that she wasn't getting "Thanksgiving food" when I told her I wanted to go out.  Instead I should've been grateful that a) she wants to spend the holiday at home with us and b) we can afford the beautiful meal we will serve.  So, now WE are cooking.  All 3 of us have a duty.

The weight watcher in me is a bit nervous about overeating.  I am going to try everything in my power not to overdue it.  And I am hoping that my annual black Friday shopping trip (all that moving around and walking) will help.

We have had a lot of stress in our lives with family being ill and financial burdens.  And holidays in general tend to be stressful with hustling around - decorating, shopping, baking, eating.  We have to keep in mind that it's the season to be JOLLY.

Monday, November 7, 2016

I'm Back

Yes, I know.  It's been a long time. I've hit a bit of a rough patch.  But I have not given up.  I am still fighting the good fight.  I have tried not to let a slip turn into a slide.  It's hard to believe that I was just 2 pounds away from goal weight just 3 months ago.  I am now 10 pounds away.  I am disappointed with myself.

Losing weight is hard.  In the beginning it was SO easy.  The pounds just dropped off.  I weigh now what I did in January!!  For 10 months I have been struggling.  Stress has played a HUGE part lately.  When I am stressed and overwhelmed, I tend to eat not so healthy and I certainly don't feel like exercising (even though I know in my brain exercising would make me feel better).  

Not really sure what the answer is.  Keeping the course?  Staying on track?  Don't let a slip turn into a slide?  Certainly all these things will help.  (But so would having my jaw wired shut but let's be realistic).

I know most of it is that I am a bit toooooo comfortable.  A little cake here, a candy there, an "adult beverage" from time to time - all things I never allowed myself in the beginning.  Maybe THAT'S the solution.  I need to go back to my basics.  And maybe go back to being simply crazy.

Hey - it worked before... 

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

White Out!

Last night, after I carefully measured out the very yummy Bob Evans Mashed Potatoes (1/4 cup, thank you very much) and after I the licked the spoon, I was wondering...has anyone else ever noticed that everything white is yummy yet "forbidden"?  I mean, think about it - white bread, white rice, white potatoes, pasta, White Castle.  Oops.  I know you know what I am talking about.  We associate these things with starches.  And starches are bad.  Are they not?  Some starchy veggies (i.e. potatoes) are low in fat but high in carbs.  BUT, they are the right kind of carbs.  Not the chips, crackers, cookies kind of "bad" (forbidden?) carbs.

Within reason, nothing is really forbidden.  OK, maybe White Castle should be.  But, if you want to have a piece of white bread, for goodness sake - have it.  But, have one.  Not half a loaf. It's common sense, folks.  Not rocket science.  You can't deprive yourself of all the things you love.  I can take or leave rice but I do love mashed potatoes! Carefully measured, I can have them any time I want to. 

When people ask me "oooo - can you eat that on WW?" I try not to get mad or offended.  Instead, I try to educate.  Yes, I can have anything I want on WW.  Just within reason.  

I promised myself I wasn't going to whine too much about the fact that the scale is going in the wrong direction.  Instead, I am going to focus on getting those pounds off.  Let's say by Christmas.  

Happy week!

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Weekend Warrior

If it weren't for the weekends, I'd be there.  I would be at goal weight.

I know in my heart of hearts, this is true.  Saturday's have always been a relaxed day...the day I weigh in and know in my mind that I have a whole week to repair what I might do/eat/drink.  Of course I am still working on losing the big gain of 3.6 pounds from the camping weekend (well, I don't know for sure if that's the only cause but that's what I am going with).  You remember - the 3 days eating and drinking binge, the loss of my mind and the terrible price I paid to play hard.

Lately, Saturday cheat has become Saturday/Sunday cheats.  Well, that just won't do. Things have to change.  And so, I made it happen.  I was mostly good on Saturday and really good on Sunday.  AND, I have kicked my own butt back into gear with exercising. 

I am recommitting myself to exercising AT LEAST 4 days a week and getting 10,000 steps a day in.  I have recommitted to honestly tracking.  I am back to focusing on my journey.  

I'm looking forward to cooler days.  Days when we can ride our bikes, take longer walks, play more in the yard.  Fall is my favorite season.  I will miss all the yummy summer veggies but will find new and exciting fall/winter veggies.  

These last 5 pounds will not beat me, I will not be undone.

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

THIS is why

It's the moment you find that perfect shirt, the one you have been looking high and low for - there it is.  4 of them.  All. Size. Small.  You're crushed.  What's a girl to do?  Well, if you are me, you try it on anyway.  And guess what - IT FIT.  So, I bought it.  

It's that moment when I am like, um okay.  This is why I continue on my journey.  Never mind that I feel better and am much healthier.  I AM WEARING A SIZE SMALL SHIRT.

Yea, I have told everyone in the office that I'm wearing a small.  Because I am damn proud.  

I have been beating myself up because I have gotten off track.  I know I shouldn't but it's hard.  Life happens, I know.  But so far, this has come so easy for me.  And so many people are proud of me (including myself), I am scared to disappoint.  Sometimes it's just a lot of pressure to succeed.  And when I stumble, I feel let down.  

So what have I changed?  Well, for one thing, I am exercising again.  I didn't realize how much I missed it until I started again.  And, I'm trying super hard not to cheat.  I am re-committing myself to getting 10,000 steps a day. 

I will get there.  This I know.  I have picked myself up (again) and brushed myself off (again) and gotten back on track (AGAIN).  

One thing I have proven myself is that I am a winner.  I am winning.  When I cross that line, I will know that I earned it.  And that I deserve it.  

Tuesday, August 23, 2016


"Everyone has the right to be happy without feeling guilty".  Yet I feel completely guilty.  Why?  Because I am a cheater.  I cheated on WW.  In a big, ugly way. And on myself .  I cheated on the new Sheri.

I don't know what happens to my brain when I go camping.  But I saw a glimpse of the old Sheri and quite frankly, it scared the hell out of me.  I woke up feeling guilty and disappointed with myself.  I kept asking myself, "how could I have eaten that?" and "why did I drink so much?"  I had the perfect opportunity to walk and get a lot of good exercise.  But did I?  Nope.  I sat, like a blob, in my camp chair and hardly moved.  I'm not going to list all the "bad things" I consumed.  Just know that it wasn't pretty.  

I know it's going to happen from time to time.  But my goodness.  It was like my brain took a leave of absence - completely checked out.  I got caught up in having a good time.  A year ago when I was a bit TOO cuckoo and people around me were like "oh come on, you're on vacation, live a little - quit counting those chips."  I felt like I was under scrutiny.  This year I let my hair down and I feel like they weren't watching me, as much.  Does that make sense?  

Here's the thing though. Its hard to be with a group of people who all bring food to contribute to meals and be "good" with what's being offered.  I can only control but so much.  I bring to the table something healthy every time so I know that there will be at least one option for me.  I also bring healthy snacks. So I DO try.  

I do have the right to be happy.  Right?

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

"Vacation...All I Ever Wanted"

"Vacation...have to get away" (Go-Go's) 

It's vacation time! And I cannot wait.  A year ago I had a little trouble letting go when we were away because I was at the beginning of my journey.  I was so afraid of getting out of control and gaining back the weight I had lost.  

Now...I think I might have the opposite problem.  I am a little too relaxed these days.  I'm a bit cocky since I am so close to goal weight.  NOW is when I should have a tighter control.  NOW is when I should be really under control.

BUT.  But if I screw up or go off the deep end, I will just have to reign it back in when we come home and get back on track.  

My one saving grace is that I will be with my parents, who are also Weight Watchers.  That should help some.  :)  

Friday, July 29, 2016

Greek Yogurt Rage

I have never been a huge yogurt fan.  I have tried.  I mean, really tried.  I will admit that when Weight Watchers HAD yogurt, I did eat them and for the most part, liked them.  They were like a dessert (lemon and key lime pie).  But, they were discontinued.  I tried some other brands they were just "eh".   

When I was combing the shelves at the grocery store for yogurt that maybe I might like, and using the barcode scanner on my WW app, I came to the realization that not all yogurts are created the same.  One caramel yogurt was 13 points. 13!  When you think yogurt, you think healthy.  Right? Wrong.

There is a lot of sugar in yogurt. Seems to me if there is that much sugar in it, it should taste better.  Also wrong.  I bit the bullet the other night and bought a lemon Greek "Crunch" yogurt.  I'm sorry but no amount of cookie crumbles and white chocolate pieces was going to make that stuff taste better. Ew.

So, I am going to have to come to realize that I am just not a yogurt person.  Try as I might, it's just not something I will probably ever like.  And it's a shame because there is so much of it out there and the Greek stuff is all the rage.  

It will just have to rage on without me.  

Monday, July 25, 2016


So much happening!  So much good "stuff" happening!!  

When I started this blog, I stated my "why".  First and foremost, my health.  I was heading in a direction I didn't want to be heading...diabetes.  I had terrible foot pain.  I was uncomfortable all the time.  I was so unhealthy that something had to be done.  So, I joined Weight Watchers.  And never looked back.

There were other compelling reasons too...2 family weddings, daughter's college graduation and my 30th high school reunion.  I want to not only be healthier and feel better but also wanted to look GOOD.  

Well, the last event on my "why list" was last weekend.  Many classmates were shocked, several told me many times how great I looked.  I heard someone told one of my besties "Sheri looks so great - she is like 1/2 the person she was the last time I saw her".  Another classmate sent me a message and said that I was beautiful. At least 2 people told me that I inspired them to get healthy.  During brunch, one of my friends told me that I needed to work for WW because she said "I spoke so passionately" about my weight loss.  I was and am so happy.  

I was going to skip WW Saturday just because I had so much going on with the reunion.  But I went because I needed it.  I think it might be much like people needing an AA Meeting.  And boy am I glad that I did!  Not only was I DOWN 2.2 pounds, but I also set my goal weight and I only need to lose 2 more pounds!  2.  More.  Pounds!!!  And once I maintain my goal weight for 6 weeks, I become a life time member!!!!  Free WW!  Woohoo!!!  I think that because I was not only 2 pounds down and only have 2 pounds to lose is what kept me from going off the rail this weekend.  Sure I had more adult beverages that I usually do and I ate out a bit more than normal.  But I didn't go crazy. I tried to still make good choices.   

I am so excited about this.  I am trying to be realistic that those 2 pounds might not come off this week.  That it might take a few weeks to hit the magic number.  But the light at the end of the tunnel is SO bright.  All I can say is WOW!  Go me!!  :)

Sunday, July 17, 2016

On Point

As weight watcher, and having been one for a long time, I have become very good at knowing what the points are in a lot of foods. When I am fixing my breakfast and lunch, I count the points as I put the food in my lunch bag.  I have already figured out the dinners for the week so I know how many points I have left for breakfast and lunch.  And, really, I eat the same exact thing every day for lunch (at least 5 days a week).  So, it's lunch that can be juggled some.  

At the store, if I don't already know how many points are in something, I use my handy dandy scanner on the WW app. Most of the time, though, I buy the same things over and over so I know the points. Sometimes I know how many points are in something but I buy them anyway (like Fruity Crisp Oreos). Ha ha!  

Of course there are times that you eat first, figure out points later. That's never a good thing to do. It's irresponsible. But it does happen. You learn from your mistakes. Or not. But hopefully you do.  

And, a word to the wise.  Even if a recipe LOOKS healthy, don't take that for face value.  Figure out the points using the recipe builder.  Otherwise you will be in for a shock!  

In case you were wondering...there are:
41 points in the Sonic boom box
Roughly 32 points in the $5 lunch Dairy Queen

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

I Might Be A Little Bit Fruity

Those of you who know me well, know that I have a full-on love affair with Fruity Pebbles.  I love nothing more than a box of Fruity Pebbles.  Yes I said box. No I didn't mean bowl.  Because let's face it.  I could potentially eat an entire box in one sitting.  Never mind that there are 6 points in a "serving" (which, btw is actually 3/4 of a cup NOT a soup bowl).  A whole box is just a mere 72 points.  Psssh.  I know myself well enough to know better than to buy a box.  I can't be trusted with them.  

THEN I see these little gems while grocery shopping.  

ALWAYS a sucker for the "limited edition" Oreo's, when I saw these I swear my heart stopped.  I started to sweat.  I was salivating.   It was all I could do to NOT tear into them right there in the middle of the isle at Wegman's.  They DID come home with me.  I made myself wait until lunch to open them.

When I opened the bag and got a whiff of those sweet fruity "crisps" (whatever - PEBBLES), I was in heaven.  I patiently ate my lunch knowing that once I was done, I could have my dessert.  The whole time, I was wondering if I would be disappointed.  

I was not.  These things are AWESOME.  They are fantastically sweet and Fruity Pebble tasting.  And, they are 3 points a PIECE! Of course I tracked them.  Of course I limit myself.  I had 1 last night.  Do I want to eat the whole package?  Of course.  But will I?  Nope.  

This is why I LOVE WW.  I have the flexibility to eat treasures like this ON OCCASION.  I can have a splurge without sliding down that slippery slope into a sugar induced coma. 

And good news - these are only "limited edition".  So when they're gone, they're gone.  And that might be a good thing!  

Monday, June 20, 2016


At my Saturday morning WW meeting, I got to celebrate someone who reached goal weight.  It was SO exciting.  You see, we've been on this journey together.  We have shared the ups and downs.  We have shared recipes and tips.  We have cheered, we have boo'd, we have agonized over .2 pounds.  She is testimony that this CAN happen and WILL happen if you stick with it.

On my way to the meeting, I was hopeful for her that that would be the day she made goal.  I am so excited for her.  I have surprised myself by not being jealous.  I mean, sure I wish I was there right along with her.  But, I will get there eventually.  Then we will celebrate me.  YAY!

This is the last week of school (schwoooo).  I am looking forward to the teachers and the kiddies being gone.  Without them, the likelihood of random food showing up in the office will diminish.  And, the stress will be mostly gone.  I have found that for sure I AM a stress eater.  These last few days have proved that as fact.

So, once we get through the school celebrations and the end of year celebrations and we get everyone out of the school, I should be just fine.

Until then...let's just celebrate.

Within reason!  ;)  

Friday, June 17, 2016

Am I Old?

I think I might be getting old.  For example, my patience has worn very thin - for most everything.  I have zero tolerance.  I instantly "hate" skinny young 30-something girls who "got it goin' on".  Ok, hate is a strong word but I definitely feel threatened.  I have limits now, where I didn't use to. I roll my eyes at the things young people say/do/wear.  I'm getting cranky.

But, here is the kicker.  Due to my recent stomach issues, I have had to add more fiber to my diet.  Isn't that something old people do???  The other morning, I found myself in line at Wal-Mart, buying Benefiber.  This is in addition to - on doctor's orders - the added a probiotic!  What is happening????  Please stop me if you ever hear me say "when I was your age...".  Good grief!!!  

Everyone knows that the older you get, the harder it is to lose weight.  I am guessing that's true since I am a whole year older than I was when I started this journey and I CAN'T GET THESE LAST POUNDS OFF!  

Things creek more when I stand up.  "Things" have shifted.  Some things aren't at all where they should be.  I don't bounce back as quickly as I used to when I have had a few adult beverages.  And Lord watch out if I haven't had enough sleep!!!


I know it's only a number.  I know it should be a frame of mind.  Most days I feel much younger than my 40-something years.  Then there are other days when I have to ask myself...

Am I old?

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Sometimes I Just Want...

...to snap my fingers and be skinny.
...to eat whatever I want and not have to worry about gaining.
...to look in the mirror and really love what I see.

I know that losing and maintaining a healthy weight is hard work and it's a life time change.  But there are times I wish it just wasn't SO hard.  I want to indulge.  I want to imbibe. And not pay for it later. "A moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips" and all that jazz.

Traveling, being off your "normal" schedule, stress, work.  All things that can work against you - if you aren't careful.  I have been watching the scale go up and down and up and down for over 6 months.  I am beginning to feel that they only way I am going to get these last 10 pounds off is to eat the same exact thing every single day and not cheat a single bit and drown myself in water.  Anything to reach my goal.

I honestly thought it was going to be easy.  I mean, all the way up to this point, it was.  Weight was just dropping off.  Now, I am stalled.  Yo-yo-ing.  I just want to reach goal.  Then, I can stay there.  Ugh!!!!  So frustrating!!!!!  

Monday, May 30, 2016

Darn BMI

If it weren't for that darn BMI (body mass index), I would probably be happy where I am, weight-wise.  I think mostly because the last stretch IS KILLING ME.  I'm like "ok, I get it! I can maintain at this weight so I'll just stay here."  But let's face it I'm too stubborn to stop now.  I am so close to being within the healthy weight range.  I can't quit now.

I had to laugh at myself this weekend when I was making my 3rd (yes 3rd) s'more.  There was no way I would've even THOUGHT about eating that a year ago!  I am way too relaxed now.  I have 10 pounds to lose and I'm stuffing down melted marshmallows and melted chocolate like it was my job.  

So what do I need to do?  Well, I have to get my head back in the game.  And hopefully the rest of me will follow.  As a start, I did 30 minutes on the elliptical (for the first time in over 2 weeks) today when we got home from camping.  I will be doing my very best to get 10,000 steps every day.  I will HONESTLY track. Or I will track honestly.  I will make better choices.  I will motivate myself by reading WW Connect and my magazines.  I have to try to find the me I was a year ago.  But maybe a little less crazy.  Not sure if that's possible.  Guess we will see.

Friday, May 20, 2016

A Woman with A Plan

This couldn't be more true this week!  Not just going to the store hungry BUT also since I was sick, I didn't meal plan or do my "big shop" for the week so we've been eating on the fly.  Which is never a good thing.

The key to good eating habits and losing weight, I think, is planning.  When I don't plan, I don't have control. Deciding mid-day what we are going to eat that night does not work for me.  At least 3 days in the last 5, I have gone to the store to get what we needed for dinner that night.  Which means I had to take in account what I had for breakfast and lunch so I didn't go over my points. What a pain!!!

Now that I am feeling much better and am almost back to my 'old' self, I can come up with my menu and grocery list for all of next week and feel back in control!  YAY!  There are still a lot of foods I am avoiding because I do not want to have a set-back.  But I am working around that.  Trying to find my limits.  I still have at least 4 days of no exercise, which IS killing me.  The minute I am able, I am back to my work out routine.  And I can't wait!

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Being Told No

This last week have been utterly terrible.  "Why?" you ask.  Well let me tell you...

Last week, I was feeling poorly, thinking it was "womanly issues". I finally broke down and went to the doctor, and after peeing in a cup, blood work and a CT Scan it was determined I have Diverticulitis.  Ok, I can deal with that, I've had this before (a long time ago).  Prescriptions picked up and taken, lite diet started and I am on the mend, right? Right. UNTIL the follow up.  The lovely doctor tells me no exercise.  Wait.  What?  Apparently the meds can mess up your tendons.  Have you ever heard such a thing??  So, basically for 2 weeks - no exercise.  

I told her that foods that are listed on the "lite diet" (white rice, white potatoes, canned fruit, canned veggies) are foods that I just don't eat anymore - at least not often. Her response was "you're just going to have to cheat".  I came out of the follow up appointment defeated. In tears.  I felt like my WW world was collapsing.  Being told no exercise and eat what I consider non-WW friendly foods - I was crushed. And a bit panicked.  

I know that I have to do what's best for my health.  And I have been and will continue to do so. I am careful.  I am tracking.  I know I will turn a corner and will be back to my normal self.  Who knows, maybe this lite diet is just what I need to shake things up a bit and get these final 10 off!  Just didn't want it to be because I was sick.  

Monday, May 9, 2016

Reckless Abandon

The time has come (and gone) - graduation!  The moment I have been waiting for!  Being skinny(ier) and looking good for my baby's college graduation.  Compared to you-know-who, I looked damned good.  Yay me!!!


All bets were off this weekend.  I ate with reckless abandon.  I didn't go to WW Saturday morning.  For the first time in 14 months, I didn't track.  Not Friday, Saturday OR Sunday.  And let me tell you, I didn't like it one bit.  I felt out of control.  I couldn't get my brain switched back to WW mode.  It was stuck in celebration gear.  Yes, this is the moment (or one of them) that I have been working for but that is NO excuse to go nuts!!!!  

You know that expression, "shoot first, ask questions later"?  Well, it was like eat now, calculate later.  You just can't do that.  Because what you find out (points-wise), you will not like.  

So.  This morning I gave myself a talking-to.  I am weighing and measuring. I am tracking.  I will exercise.  Time to get my head back in the game.  We've got 10 pounds to go and dammit, we will get there.  

Sooner rather than later.  :)

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Broken Cookies

Something is happening.  Brownies last week, a small piece of cake yesterday, a small muffin today.  Oh, and let's not forget the "broken" cookies from Home Economics class the week before.  

A year ago I never would've let that stuff pass my lips.  So, what's changed??  Am I a little too comfortable?  Am I too confident that I can control a little taste here, a little taste there?  Am I secretly sabotaging myself?   

I don't know the answer.  I just know I need to stop!  But how?  Where is the willpower I had just a few short months ago?  When did "just say no" become "well okay, maybe a little?"  

I am a little frustrated that the last 10 pounds are SO HARD to get off.  Okay, maybe a little more than a little.  I am really freaking frustrated.  I feel good, I feel like I look good.  But I really want to lose these last few pounds.  Went up .4 last weekend.  Doesn't sounds like much but it's certainly the wrong direction!!  

So, what do I need to do to shake things up?  Carb binge and then regroup?  Exercise more (but when?)?  Starve myself? Or just stay the course?  I am sure the answer is stay the course.  Keep tracking and continuing to be as healthy as I can be.    

I know one thing is for sure - one answer is to stay away from the cookies.  Even the broken ones.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Smell of Victory

Well, it happened.  I stood in front of the ex husband, skinnier than I have been since our 24 year old daughter was born.  I'm not sure what I expected.  I did have a moment of sweet victory when I saw his wife give me the once over.  I knew I looked good. And them - not so much.  I think back to the words he said that hurt me to the core - "you let yourself go". Well, Saturday I could've said those same 4 words to him.  But I didn't.  Because I am a human being.

When I started this journey, one of my driving forces (my health being #1) was I wanted to look good for my daughter's graduation.  For that in-you-face-sucker moment when he saw me.  He probably didn't notice but it turned out that it really didn't matter to me if did or didn't.  What matters is that I am healthier and I know that I look good.  I certainly don't need any validation from a "man" (and I use that word loosely) that left me with a 3 year old because I "let myself go".

People need to think before they speak.  Words can be very damaging.  I have carried those 4 words with me for 21 years.  Not sure I will ever forget them.  But I certainly learned what kind of person he is.

Enough about that.  

I was up a pound last week.  Which really bummed me out.  I looked back and didn't see where I might have gone wrong except I slacked a bit on exercising.  Let's face it, sometimes life gets in the way!  So, I will make sure I take a spin at least 4 days this week - no matter what.

Monday, April 18, 2016

10 to Go

That's right.  Only 10 more pounds to go!  I can do this!!!!  Even losing it 1 pound at a time, I can do this.  They said it would be slower to come off the closer you get to goal weight.  Well, they are right!  It's hard.  My body is "ok" with where I am.  It's happy.  It's comfortable.  It's telling me that it wants to stay right here.  My brain is like, "um...no...just a little more".  

Last week, we had a visiting leader.  I don't care for her style (we've had her before).  But the thing that upset me the most was that she did scale and non-scale victories at the end of the meeting.  And since she ran so late, people left and possibly some of those people wanted to celebrate and/or be celebrated!  Myself included.  I wanted to share my 1 pound loss.  It might not seem like a big deal to most but to a room full of weight watchers, it's huge.

So I celebrated myself.  :)

I go into most Saturdays thinking I am going to have this huge cheat day.  But most of the time, I end up being good.  I wanted a sloppy burger a few Saturdays ago and ended up with one but with no bun, no mayo.  This last Saturday we went out and I ended up having a grilled chicken breast.  Even my cheat days aren't really cheat days.  I can't cheat!  

I guess this is a good thing.  My brain has been re-trained to think differently.  And that is why this is working this time.  A switch literally went on in my brain - the weight loss switch. I am keeping it on!

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Who's Your Support System?

Without support, I could not be as successful as I have been.  At our meeting last week, we discussed who supports us.  Of course everyone at the meeting supports each other.  I was sad to hear some people don't have any support from their families.  I am so lucky - I can't think of one single person in my life who hasn't been supportive or encouraging.

My hubby has been SO incredibly wonderful.  His support has been paramount.  He tells me ALL THE TIME how proud of me he is. He shares every victory and every stumble with me.  He never complains when I make "weird food" or when I introduce him to something different.  He's a meat-and-potatoes kind of guy.  I have shown him that meals can be meatless (which he's still not crazy about) and salads can been filling.  

My parents and my sister are one their journeys as well.  We are a great support system for each other.  All of us are at different stages.  Each week, we share how we are doing.  No pressure, no admonishments, only encouragement.

At work, I have my own personal cheerleaders.  This is so important since I am with these people more awake hours than I am with anyone else (hubby included).  My friends are sensitive to my food "restrictions" - one even made me a WW friendly birthday cake!!! I have my walking buddy and my Pilates buddy and my lunch gal pals.  Without my circle of friends, my day would be long and hard.

My girlfriends have been in my corner since the beginning.  They understand where I am coming from and where I am heading to.  They support me not just in their words but in their actions.  

I am so fortunate to have this support system around me day in and day out.  And it's because of each and every person that I have been successful.  I thank you.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

I Can Feel My Heartbeat

Heart pounding, mind racing, head screaming, sweating - all of these I experienced only moments before the end of my work day yesterday.  Anger.  Anger does serious things to your body.  When you are in tune, you notice how certain emotions affect you.  I knew my blood pressure was probably sky high.  

I had every intention of coming home and working off my bad afternoon.  I even told my boss as I was leaving that I was going home and exercising to de-stress.  And yet, I found myself wandering around in my kitchen when I walked in the door, reverting to my old ways, looking for something to eat.  I had to stop myself and rewind.  Was I really hungry or was I wanting to eat my feelings?  I had just had an apple.  So...it probably wasn't hunger.  I walked out of the kitchen and got on the elliptical.  And for 30 minutes, I lost myself in the rhythm of the exercise and watched TV.  I regrouped and let go.  And just like that, I felt better. And when those 30 minutes were over, I went upstairs, away from the kitchen and had my favorite go-to 1 point snack (popcorn).

During my walk after dinner, I was thinking to myself that I need a way to deal with angry situations differently.  But how?  Meditation?  Prayer?  Breathing exercises?  There's got to be a better way than to yell, scream, and/or complain. I don't think I need anger management because I really don't get this angry often. But for those times that I do, I have got to handle it differently.  I guess this is my next challenge for myself.  

Friday, April 1, 2016


From the late, great David Bowie come the words of one of my favorite songs, "Changes".  The opening of the song resonates to me and my "new life": "I still don't know what I was waiting for...and my time was running wild...a million dead end streets.  And every time I thought I'd got it made...it seemed the taste was not so sweet."  

I don't know what I was waiting for.  I kept thinking I would try to lose weight sometime.  I knew I wasn't healthy and that I didn't feel good.  It took the visit to the doctor to give me the kick the pants I needed.  It was like what Oprah says now,  "If not now, when?". 

So many great changes have evolved from my weight loss.  The list goes on and on but here are my favorites:

  • I can reach and paint my toe nails
  • I can curl up in a chair
  • I can wrap a hotel towel around me
  • I can feel my collar/hip bones
  • My boobs don't choke me when I lay down
  • I walk faster/climb stairs quicker
  • I have been called tiny (what?!?)
  • My feet don't hurt
  • I don't have to shop in specialty stores because...
  • I have gone from a size 18 to an 8 in pants!!
It's these changes that keep me going and keep me on track.  I am wondering if I feel this good now...how good will I feel when I get the last 13 pounds off?!?!?  Can I possibly feel any better??  Guess we will have to wait and see!

Sunday, March 20, 2016

But First...A Selfie

I used to HATE having my picture taken.  I cringed at the thought of a permanent record of "what I had become".  When I look back at the pictures that I had allowed, I can't believe how much I had let myself go.  I hated how I looked, how I felt, how much I had changed.  It was depressing.  So...to avoid all those feelings, I just avoiding being in pictures.  Pretty sad for a scrapbooker.  I have tons of everyone else.  Not many of me.

Flash forward to now - look how far I have come!  My daughter said that she was looking at a picture of the 2 of us from Mother's Day a few years ago and she couldn't believe how different I look now.  She is proud of me.  I am proud of me.  

I like asking people to take our picture when we go places now.  I like when we attempt to "take a selfie" even though neither my nor hubby's arms are very long (so some of them are close-up-selfies).  But I don't care.  I like having my picture taken now.  

This being said, I promise I won't overdo it. I won't be one of those people who constantly put pictures of myself on Facebook or Instagram.  An occasional pic here and there, maybe. 

This was a good week.  Down a pound.  I hope that I have broken through the plateau I have been up against for so long.  These last 15 pounds (now 13.8) to goal weight have been very slow to come off.  It's frustrating.  But I am not giving up.  I am going to get there. It might not happen when I had hoped.  I might have to re-adjust my timeline.  But that's ok.  I will get there.   

But first...a selfie.
That's the Shenandoah River behind me

Monday, March 14, 2016


I just realized how long it's been since I posted.  I have been swamped at work and by the time I get home, exercise, make dinner and clean up, I am pooped.  

In the last year, I have become more in tune with my body. I have noticed how stress affects me.  Work has been one of the things in my life that I feel like I have complete control of.  Until recent changes have thrown me for a loop.  The last few weeks have been crazy!  I had to keep reminding myself not to eat my feelings.  Each day when I got home, I had to talk myself into not crawling into bed but instead exercise.  It was a struggle not to raid the pantry and eat everything in sight.  And each day, I was grateful that I didn't give in to temptation.    

Stress does terrible things to the body.  That's why you have to figure out a way to manage it.  I think did pretty well.  I know getting on the elliptical helped tremendously.  Exercise releases endorphins, which is helps the brain feel good.  If your brain feels good, so should you.  Right?  

The scale is moving very slowly.  Despite tracking and my normal exercise, I am not losing at the rate I would like to be.  I am trying not to get discouraged and keeping in mind how far I have come.  I've hit that dreaded plateau.  I have been reading some articles on overcoming this hurdle and hopefully something will work.  

In the meantime, I will keep on keeping on.  And try not to stress about it.  

Friday, February 26, 2016

Happy Anniversary!

I just celebrated my 1 year anniversary with Weight Watchers.  And what a year it's been!! I went from a size 18 to an 8!  I have lost the weight of a small child, a 5000 BTU air conditioner, the weight of 57 guinea pigs (okay that was silly but you get my drift).  57 pounds of weight - GONE.  Poof.  Just like that.  

No.  Not just like that.  A lot of hard work and discipline and a whole lot of cray-cray went into this life change.  When I started out, even as determined as I was, I was still a bit skeptical that I would be able to lose THIS MUCH weight. And I'm not done yet!!

This last year was full of ups and downs.  We had family weddings, vacations, family visits and we also had sadness, illness and death.  All of those things (good and bad) had challenges associated with them.  And, all of them were dealt with in a non self-destructive way.  

I didn't just lose 57 pounds.  I GAINED back the ability to walk pain free.  I GAINED back long lost confidence.  I GAINED knowledge of a healthier lifestyle.  I GAINED a healthy respect for food. I GAINED a love for exercise.  I REGAINED control of my life.  And I got sexy back.  ;)  

I truly believe Weight Watchers has it right.  It IS beyond just the scale.  It's the whole you that you are working on.  Finding the "me time" in each day.  Planning and preparing menus and meals.  Exercising.  Stretch yourself.  Go outside your comfort zone.  

I learned something really important about myself on this journey.  I am not a quitter.  I have celebrated.  I have stumbled.  I have fallen.  I have picked myself up, dusted myself off and moved past.  I will not fail.  

SO happy anniversary to me!  And thank you Weight Watchers for helping me get my life back!

Tuesday, February 23, 2016


So many times last weekend I heard the word "only".  "I was only down .4", "I only worked out twice", "I only planned meals for 1/2 the week".  Instead, I should have heard "Yay!  I was down .4!", "I am glad I worked out twice - it's better than nothing" and "I know I can plan for 1/2 the week, let's try adding a few more days".  Turning the negative "only" into something positive is so much more motivating.  

I have been working really hard to remove that 4-letter word from my vocabulary. I told hubby last night that I was declaring it a bad word from now on.  It's a hard word to avoid, that's for sure.  But if you want to be more optimistic and less pessimistic you have to think differently. 

This month, I have decided to try really hard to be more positive in ALL aspects of my life.  Take for instance work - work has been super stressful trying to learn a new system.  I know in the long run, it will be better so I am trying to focus on that rather than how hard it is to get used to it.  I really want a new puppy.  We can't really afford it right now, which is really disappointing.  So, rather than be disappointed,  I am thinking it will happen when the time is right.  It's been so hard to get all my steps in but I am grateful that I can even walk the number of steps that I do because a year ago, I couldn't manage 1/2 of what I am doing now. 

I am also avoiding negative press (i.e. politics), social media and conversations that are filled with complaints and disparaging comments.   It's hard to turn away from toxic people, especially when you care about them.  I know I very can very easily get caught up in the moment and spew negativity as well.  What good does that do?  It doesn't make you feel good/better.  By walking away or by trying to change the tone of the conversation, I can save myself from bad feelings.

Now, if only (ha!) I could change the world...

Sunday, February 14, 2016

Tried and True

One of the things I enjoy the most at my WW meetings is people sharing good ideas, new foods and recipes. Enter Just Great Stuff powdered  peanut butter. I will admit that at first I was like "Um, I don't think so" but the more people around me said how good it was, the more I wanted to try it. I love peanut butter but it's so high in points that I avoid it (as best as I can).  I left my meeting and went directly to Wegmans and bought some. Displayed with them were popped cakes - I bought those too.  I couldn't wait to get home and try them.  I have to say that I am so glad that I did!! It's my new favorite snack - and only 2 points for the popped cake, the peanut butter and banana!! I like it so much I bought the chocolate peanut butter one too and tried that today. One word. Yummy. Go ahead - try it. You will be glad you did!!! 

Sunday, February 7, 2016

Knock, Knock

Who's there?? I used to joke around that deep down inside me was a skinny girl - I knew she was there because I ate her. She's been fighting hard to get out. Well, I am not a "skinny girl" but I am a "skinnier girl". 

Last night we went out to dinner. And while I had already planned what I would eat before we even got there, I still perused the menu (mistake). There were sooooo many yummy things on the menu  that were sooooo bad for you.  I sighed a very heavy sigh, hubby asked what's wrong and I said "I hate being a fat girl". He looked right at me and said "you're NOT a fat girl".  Okay. True. But I used to be. I know that it wouldn't take much to slide back into old habits. And it's those yummy looking, so very bad for you foods that contributed to my downward spiral. 

When I ordered my dinner, I told them to leave off the butter sauces, ordered steamed asparagus and had light dressing on the side of my salad. I did allow myself a small piece of bread. And I boxed up the rice for hubby to eat another night. 

Sometimes I just wish I was one of those people who can just eat whatever they want and never gain an ounce. I secretly hate those people. Not really. I feel like all I have to do is walk down the fresh baked goodies aisle at Wegmans and gain weight. I will never be the person who won't have to worry about what they are putting in their mouth. That makes me sad sometimes. 

Earlier in the week, I decided that for the Super Bowl game, we would order a pizza a Italian salad for dinner. All week it's all I could think of. That is until I saw how many points that would have been. So I decided to make a WW friendly soup instead. Much more sensible. 

I am feeling a bit down (can you tell??). I was up a smidge this week. In the last 3 weeks, I have gained back 1/2 a pound. That doesn't sound like much. But I really wanted to be at goal weight by my birthday! I did the math. I'd need to lose 2 pounds (at least) a week to get there. It's not likely to happen. I will still aim for that but know that I will probably have to adjust my goal weight target date. 

What am I going to do to help myself get there? Well first - no more cheats. I have been bad about that lately - a cookie here, a bite of brownie there. I am going to make really sure I drink more water. I am going to continue my exercise. I am going to get plenty of sleep. And I'm not going stress out too much about this. (Or at least I'm going to try not to). 

I am going to try something new. I will write "2 pounds" on stickies and put them at eye level on the fridge (at home and at work), on my computer, on the door of my office and where ever else I will see it. Maybe that will help me remember to do all the right things. 

This week will be a busy one - a week with 2 dinners out, a cookie decorating class, a concert, and trainings away from my office. These are the kinds of things that can really throw me off because it's not my normal schedule/routine. That could mean trouble. Or not. 😉

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Out of The Woods?

Thank goodness life is back to "normal".  My normal routine is what keeps me on track.  It's so much better packing my breakfast and lunch each day rather than being at home with limitless choices (even though they may be good for you choices).  Back to working out and walking.  I have missed my Pilates class and - yes even my Barre class.

I equate being snowed in with traveling.  Both have the potential for disaster.  And over the last 2 weeks, I have been and done both. After being snowed in for a week, we traveled to Kentucky for the weekend.  I took grapes and apples to much on in the car.  I grabbed bananas for breakfast.  I snacked on popcorn (ok so that MIGHT not have been the best snack idea but it is my weakness).  I passed on donuts at one of our stops and didn't drink any soda (both of which are "old Sheri" staples while traveling).  I considered that a victory!!

Trying to stick to plan yet still enjoy myself has been and always will be my challenge when traveling.  I tried to make good meal choices.  But I wasn't crazy obsessed like I have been in the past.  I am sure it will show up on the scale this weekend.  The positive thing is that I know to get myself back in control, back on plan and KNOW that it's going to be okay.  I  might be up this week but I know that I can get it back off with determination and my weirdo obsession-like attitude.

It's really not just the eating part when you are confined, it's the exercising, walking and just plain moving (or lack there of) that kills me.  Shoveling and doing the elliptical was plenty of activity when we were snowed in but it was the in-between time that I felt slug-like.  And of course when you are in the car for 9/10 hours, the only movement you get is when you get to a rest area to pee.  

It's only January so I know that there is still a chance we will have more snow day(s).  I would like to think that Punxsutawney Phil is right and spring will come early.  But I don't think we're out of the woods...yet.

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Blizzard Jonas - It's over

We are completely dug out and feeling a lot less confined. There is still no school/work but we can go to the store. There are friends who have not even seen a snow plow! So I feel fortunate. 

Today is the first day I really had the munchies. Like I wanted to snack all day. Hubby raised an eyebrow when I was eating popcorn after lunch. It wasn't mindless munching. I knew how much I was eating.  I considered it a huge victory that there was even any left and even more amazing that there is still a SECOND bag downstairs!! Know what this tells me?? I have control. Absolute control. If I didn't, both bags would be finished and more purchased. And the new-ish box of Life cereal would be gone. My 1-cup measuring cup is never far. 

So I can be snowed in and be trusted with food. Huh. Who knew??

Monday, January 25, 2016

Blizzard Jonas - Day 4

Hard work has paid off. We were able to go to the grocery store! I needed bananas. Or I would've gone bananas. It felt good to get out for a little while. 

I got on the elliptical this morning which also felt good!! And after lunch, I helped dig out one of our elderly neighbors and dug out (for the 2nd time) our fire hydrant. It's been a lot of work but very rewarding. It feels so good to help people. 

I was thinking about a snow storm back when I was first divorced. I distinctly remember eating a lot of Ho Ho's. A lot of Doritos. And a lot of other very bad crap. How could I have done that to myself!?!

So glad my head is screwed on right now. No noshing on the bad junk!! Yay!!

Sunday, January 24, 2016

Blizzard Jonas - Day 3

I am out of bananas. Actually, I am out of all my fruit and snacking veggies. Didn't plan that too well. I was so concentrated on keeping junk food out of the house that I forgot to make sure I had all the good snacks I needed. 

Hubby made homemade hot chocolate in the crockpot. He had to have grilled cheese (made with Velveeta cheese) and tomato soup make with milk. Roughly 25 points. I don't think so, buddy.  Not for me at least. 

12000 steps later, snow cleared from our driveway and driveways of neighbors, I am pooped. 

Saturday, January 23, 2016

Blizzard Jonas - Day 2

Well, I had every intention of eating my usual 4 point breakfast this morning.  But we built up quite an appetite shoveling first thing this morning.  So, I made us a heartier meal.  

I'm kind of at a loss with no WW meeting today.  So, I planned to read my WW magazine and try to be inspired! Well. That didn't happen. But I did not snack much and at the end of this very long day, I still have points left over. 

The elliptical didn't happen. But shoveling 3 times did. That is hard work. If the wind hadn't been so bad, I would've taken a walk. Not an excuse. Just too damn cold. 

Starting to get a little stir crazy being house bound. Maybe tomorrow I can take a walk. After shoveling, of course. 

Friday, January 22, 2016

Blizzard Jonas - Day 1

Day 1. It didn't start snowing until after noon or so. I had already consumed 15 of my precious points before 8:00 at breakfast. I had a wild idea to go out since we will be homebound for several days so we went to IHOP. The food tasted great but I did not feel good most of the day afterward. I don't know why I did that to myself. I said we were carb loading for all the shoveling we will be doing. 

I am determined not to gain a ton of weight while I'm stuck at home. All day I resised the urge to snack. It was very hard. Several times I grabbed a can of nuts and then put them right back down. And this is only the first day. 

Tomorrow - being sensible and doing some physical activity (shoveling). Stay tuned. 

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Here Comes The ... Snow?!?!

We are expecting A LOT of snow this weekend.    Some people are scared of being snowed in, like claustrophobic afraid.    And then there are the weight watchers who, like me, are scared because of being trapped at home WITH FOOD!  This storm with possible "historic snow accumulation potential" has me freaking out about just sitting around and eating.  Now mind you, the food in the house is, for the most part, healthy.   Most.  I got rid of the cookies, at least.  I have lots of snacks that are low calorie.  Of course, I always have popcorn. 

I am already thinking of what I will do while snowed in, other than help shovel snow.  Scrapbook some.  Read some.  Maybe cross-stitch a little.  Nap.  Watch Star Wars trilogy.  ALL THESE THINGS ARE SEDENTARY!  Unless I jog in place while doing these things (well, except napping).  But, other than shoveling and getting on the elliptical, I will have little opportunity to move around.  I am not a winter person.  I don't relish the idea of playing in the snow or walking in the winter wonderland.  I will be stuck inside. And this I am not looking forward to. And how on earth will I get all my 10000 steps stuck inside!?!?!? 

I guess I will have to make the best of it.  I can't control the weather.  But I CAN control what I put in my mouth.  So come on Mother Nature...show me what you got!!!

Monday, January 11, 2016

Wanna go for a run?

Since losing all this weight, I wake up in the morning feeling good and feeling like I can do anything. More than once, I have thought to myself, "I could go for a jog". Now anyone who knows me know how absolutely hilarious that is. Why? Well, because I simply can't run. I was the kid in school who WALKED "the mile" and cried the whole time. I am not a runner. But, thinking that I feel good enough to maybe go running must mean something. At any rate, I usually lay still until the feeling passes. 

I was surprised by my weigh in this week. I didn't expect much and said so when I stepped on the scale. Imagine my shock that not only was I down but I met another milestone - 55 pounds! 55 pounds. Wow. It took a while for that to really sink in. I still can't believe it!! No wonder I feel so good!!

Tonight was my second barre workout class. I am pretty sure I will feel it tomorrow and the next day. Last week I could barely sit to pee without crying a little - my legs and butt muscles hurt so bad!! 

Pilates started back up (Yay!! I love that class). Sunday and Wednesday are my 2 heavy exercise days. In addition to my classes, I also do the elliptical. And I enjoy ever single active minute of it.  I feel guilty when I have a lazy day or if I am not up moving around.  I get antsy when I am not doing something.  This is part of "The New Sheri".  

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Resolution & Determinaton

Happy 2016!  A new year is upon us and it's time to start anew.  People make resolutions every year.  If I had to guess, most resolve to exercise more and eat less.  Some might want to spend more time with family, work less, sleep more, read the Bible. Whatever their resolutions are, people start out determined to stick to their resolutions. Sadly, most will fail.  I was not going to set resolutions for myself this year.  In the past, I set them and then fail.  Why would I want to do that to myself?  

By definition, a resolution is "a firm decision to or not to do something" and determination's definition is "firmness of purpose".  Seems these two go hand in hand.    

Well...then...I am determined to continue my course towards a healthier life and I resolve to get to my goal weight.  There.  I said it.  But, this is nothing new.  This has been my new way of life 10 months ago.  So, I'm not really sure this is really a new year's resolution.  

I signed up for a new class (pure barre) that began on Sunday.  And it literally kicked my butt.  No, seriously, I can barely sit. My tush and thighs hurt so bad!  I know I have muscles that I don't use but geeeeeez! I have 9 more classes and then will decide if I want to take more.  I love my Pilates class and look forward to it starting back up tomorrow - that I wish I could do everyday! 

Here's to a happy and healthy 2016!